Caught by Robbie Michaels

Author:Robbie Michaels
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub, pdf
Publisher: Harmony Ink Press
Published: 2014-11-20T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Thirteen

Dinner Date

THE MORNING after we’d first made love, I was concerned because Ben was quiet. He was always more reserved than I was, but that morning he was even more so than usual. At first I didn’t push him, partly because I didn’t know what was going on inside his head, and I didn’t have the slightest clue how to go about asking him what he was thinking. Even more than that, I was afraid that I’d find the words to ask him what he was thinking and feeling, and he’d tell me something awful like it had been a mistake and he wished we hadn’t done it or something horrible like that. I was feeling so fragile after an hour that I thought I was going to break into a thousand tiny pieces, each hurting as much as the bigger whole felt.

It was brutally hot that day, on top of everything else, so we had to take breaks periodically as we worked on fences or weeding or whatever the hell we were doing. It didn’t matter because whatever it was, it was all in the background for me. I was working on autopilot. All of my thoughts were on Ben and how I loved him. There! I’d thought the words. I expected the sky to fall now because I’d had the audacity to think it.

It was midmorning, and we were sitting in what shade we could find, both quiet. When Ben spoke, I was surprised, but probably not as surprised as he was by my answer to his question. His question was simple—“You okay?”

And my answer? I don’t know why I said it, but my answer to Ben was “I love you.”

There, I’d said it. The words were out there. My heart was nearly bursting with the way I was feeling, and I had to say it or it was gonna just pop out of me in some uncontrolled way.

“What?” he asked quietly.

I was committed. I’d said it, so there was no pretending I hadn’t. “I love you,” I repeated.

And that was all it took. Right there in the middle of that field of corn standing tall above our heads, Ben threw himself at me, and I suddenly had two arms full of the best man in the world. I’d cried when we’d made love the previous night, but today was Ben’s turn. Right there in that field, Ben wrapped around me, and I heard him weeping quietly. He was trying to hide it, but that wasn’t possible.

“I love you,” he said to me, and I swear I levitated right there. The man I had just told I loved had just done me the honor of saying the words back to me. And it didn’t feel like he said it to be even. He said it because I’d somehow lifted the burden from the situation and allowed him to say what he was really feeling. Without having that conversation, I was reading into his reaction that he was relieved that I’d taken the first step so he could say what he wanted to, that he loved me too.

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